Small Case of Everything

This week was a BIG WEEK.


I got laid off. Answer to my prayers. I have never been so stressed, anxious, annoyed...etc.


I was telling Brandeis this past weekend that I felt my job was turning me into a whole new person I didn't like. I had extreme anxiety and every night I would come home and be stressed out....which means I took it out on Brandeis. We are both very easy going and have had a simple marriage, so far. He noticed that I would come home and be snappy and upset all night just knowing I had to wake up again and go back to work. It has been like this for over a month now.


Not healthy. So, on Monday I told him I was going to put in my two weeks and look for something new. Then that afternoon I got laid off. What a breath of fresh air.


Now.... what shall I do? I have a job lined up for June....and that is what I want to do, but we will see what else comes along. Brandeis loves me being home, I hope. I am happier and we have had so many things we needed to get done that now I have time to do! So great!






Well, I have broken down and I am in physical therapy....if you didn't know already.... my body is the body of an 80 year old woman....My knees are horrible.


I have to do all these super hard leg exercises that i complain about the whole time. Yesterday the doctor decided to play with my knee caps and show all the people how cool it was to move my knee cap around. It feels so awkward. He tells me he has never seen anything like it before.... yay.... 


I was dying yesterday doing leg lifts while this old lady next to me was doing the same thing, but with weights on her ankles.. Embarrassing.... I am so weak. The doc told me that I have no leg muscles that are supposed to keep my knee in place... and my leg is all puffed up for some odd reason...


He has put me on restriction of working out, dancing, running...etc.. he told me I cannot play my Just Dance 2 for a while...TORTURE!! So, i do my shake weight, take a little walk, and do my leg lifts daily.... go me. 




I am just grateful for Brandeis and how he pushes me to do what is needed. I was so scared to go to any doctor, but with his pushing I am now on my way to be all better...without surgery! :) I cannot wait to have my legs stronger so it wont hurt when I shower, grocery shop, stand around and chat, clean, go on walks, play Just Dance...etc.... it will be a whole new life! 


Well, it is time for physical therapy....maybe today I will add weights to my legs? ...fat chance.